A lazy artist who flip-flips between wanting to do actual things and tumblr. So many things on the list but not much doing involved.
Do not betray the one who betrays you. In this day and age it’s important that we stay loyal to ourselves. If you’re a good person, stay good. Forgiveness is the key.
If someone betrays you, they’re no longer your ally, and as a result if you turn against them you’re not betraying them, you’re treating yourself right.
If someone betrays you—if they break your trust, if they do something to hurt you emotionally or physically—then you need to get the fuck away from them. They don’t respect you. They don’t care about you. Excepting extenuating circumstances where someone had a gun to their head or they literally had no other choice—if they chose to betray you, of their own free will, without being forced into it, then they don’t care about or respect you and they aren’t worth your time, effort, or consideration. Betrayal hurts like a motherfucker, you’re still going to cry, but you can save yourself more pain in the long run by getting the fuck out of that relationship. Cut your losses and get out and don’t let them pull you back in. There is no excuse for betrayal. None, barring extreme circumstances as outlined above. Willful traitors are one of the lowest kinds of human and they do not deserve your companionship afterward.
And while “forgiveness is key,” it’s only key in the sense that you shouldn’t let hatred fester inside of you. Accept what happened, don’t hold a grudge, whatever—but don’t put your trust in the traitor again. Don’t do it. Just straight up don’t give them the power to hurt you over and over and over again. You don’t have to hit them or spend your life agonizing over what they did, but nor do you have to give them the tools to wreck your heart over and over again either. And bear in mind that if the betrayal is bad enough you don’t have to forgive them. You aren’t obligated to. If someone abuses you, if someone gets you fired or completely ruins your life in some other way, not forgiving them for it doesn’t make you a lesser person. Some things are bad enough that they do not deserve forgiveness, and in those cases the person who hurt you is the bad one—not you.
There is nothing I take more serious than loyalty, but know that it can be a double-edged sword. You should not stay loyal to someone who will not extend that same loyalty back. All it will do is leave you broken and crying to the point of dry heaving while they gallivant off with nary a care in the world. You are worth more than that. You have more value than that. And no one has the right to make you feel otherwise.
The reason the clone aspect of the show is so riveting (and feels downright brilliant) is particularly evident when you look at it on a perspective level. How often do you see hashtags trending on twitter like #ThatsWhatSlutsDo or #LiesToldByFemales or #mygirlfriendnotallowedto? Terrible blanket statements about women and their behaviors, thoughts, and actions happen all.the.time.
The idea that ladies all think and act the same (many vaginas, one mind?) is an old one: past generations and years engrained societal thought have allowed and perpetuated this for years. By making the main protagonists of the show female clones, Orphan Black forces the viewer — even though they all have the same face; even though they’re all played by the same actress — to see them all as unique, individual humans in spite of that. Because they’re autonomous people, they deserve the freedom from outside control that they seek: the right to govern their own body in whatever way they see fit. Ha! See where we’re going with this?
This has been rotting in my art folder for over a month now and let’s face it, before I finish the comic for it it will be so old that I can’t stand it anymore at all. So better post it now than never.
Part of my reincarnation AU, all the art for it is collected in the ‘reincarnation AU’ tag on my tumblr (*・ω・*)
Happpy Jäger family makes me happy.
I like it how Mako to and Haru were pretty calm during this episode but Rei lost his shit at every moment, AND he was the first one to notice that Nagisa was strange and spacing off. I also find it cute how he would never consider studying boring.
Rei was such a frantic, worried boyfriend throughout this whole episode. Even beyond the obvious door-breaking scene and the one you mentioned, there are so many small moments when he looks at Nagisa with so much concern and worry.
Like Nagisa’s arms tighten on the bag and Rei just stares at him with so much concern. He even lets out a tiny gasp when he notices Nagisa grip onto it.
And the whole time Nagisa is confessing his feelings at the end, Rei is staring at him as he cries with so much concern and worry.
I can only imagine what his expression was when Nagisa began crying and he gripped onto his shoulders.
I think you've got a good point about why Nagisa goes to Haru and Makoto and not Rei, though. Like, yes, it would be easy for his parents to find him with Rei, but you also have to know the relationship Nagisa shares with Haru. He's always looked up to him and Haru is very protective of him. Nagisa feels safe around Haru, especially when you consider their past and Nagisa being bullied. So I really do believe Nagisa went to Haru for that reason.
And Haru is super protective of him. One of the things I loved about this episode was how neither Haru and Makoto’s longstanding relationship with Nagisa or Rei’s new and passionate one were underrepresented in favor of the other. Their different expressions and levels of worry were displayed together very well, and never overstepped each other.
Nagisa seemed more relaxed than ever when he was at Haru’s place, but Haru also wasn’t going to be a pushover. He cares about Nagisa. He wanted to find out what was wrong, and even followed him to Makoto’s house to confront him (and see where he was headed).
The Haru/Nagisa moments this episode were so important.